Silent Tears

I promised myself that I that I would never cry

I would bite my tongue when you walked away

I refused to let you hurt me, find a way into my heart

I’ve never known anything like it

Never felt so much pointless pain 

You had given up on me, made it seem like such a waste

All of those years that we spent, trying to make it better

Hoping one day I would wake up and it would have gone away

It was like a raging battle fought over many years

I battled to bring you back home to us again

Then I got a kick right back in the teeth 

I should have realised that you were never going to change

I should have realised that you were never coming home

It shouldn’t really been a shock when you decided to go

That’s why no tears will flow

Why mourn a person who never really cared, who may as well be dead

Why waste my tears on someone like you, dad?